Maybe “finding yourself” is part of the process as well.


You’re so brilliant, don’t soon forget. You’re so brilliant, grace marked your heart. — Anberlin “The Unwinding Cable Car”

These words stain me in the best possible way. Though if anyone were to ever say them to me, they would sound fake. Untrue and dishonest. Cheesy, even. These words are not meant to be repeated, for the purpose would dull. I’m just a dreamer. It seems vivid fantasies dance through my head. Words etch themselves across my skull. I create plots and scenes for movies or books I will never write. I am impatient and I have no idea what to do with these ideas. I dream I’ll become a guitarist. Sometimes I even write out interviews I’d have with people in my head. Things I would say onstage. Music racks through my brain and occasionally they will escape my lips in the form of a hum. I live in my head and in the best moments of the past. After each concert I try hard to remember each feeling and moment I witnessed or felt. And I don’t think I’ll ever officially realize the past is over. I close my eyes and become lost in thought.

3 Responses to Maybe “finding yourself” is part of the process as well.

  1. Hannah says:

    Hmm, I don’t even know what to say, which is lame. Sorry. I would suggest, however, editing the sentence that goes “I’m am a dreamer.”

  2. Aunt Sherry says:

    This is brilliant! Please write down those plots and scenes from your imagination; you may want to share them with the world some day.

  3. Mom says:

    You are an amazingly talented and mature person; which makes you such a deep thinker and realist. However, don’t give up on your dreams and keep them in your mind – because that’s exactly how they will come to be. Keep the feeling alive; that’s what makes life worth it after all!

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