I like secrets ’cause they keep me in line.

I wish I could play dead like Johnny Quid. Johnny knows a good RocknRolla is worth more as a dead man, so his record sales go up. Johnny is a clever junkie, but like any junkie, you can’t trust him. Why do I want to play dead? Simple, my summer is almost over and soon I’ll be heading to this unfamiliar new school. Wandering the halls mostly alone and probably keeping to myself most of the time.

I want to keep looking back to last Tuesday and thinking how quick a week goes by. Time is very frustrating. I have realized time almost always does the opposite of what you want it to do. I know school won’t be completely miserable, but I have no idea what I’m doing. I’m nervous like anyone else. I have my school supplies, some new clothes and a new pair of shoes (all black Authentic Vans to be exact), and my school books. Everything is set and I want to pretend like nothing is going on.

Yesterday was my school orientation. A woman in the office told me where to go to be assigned a locker and be given my books. It was overwhelming and I most likely blocked out what she was saying. “Where do we go?” my mom asked me. I shrugged my shoulders and replied, “I don’t know.” Why is it that whatever advice or direction someone gives me, it goes in one ear and right out the other? Oh right, because I’m in denial.

Sighing is nice. It feels like I’m releasing a bunch of toxins that had been in my lungs. I sigh often now. I am melodramatic and slightly hystrerical. What are ya gonna do?

Song Of The Day – “Finders Keepers” by You Me At Six http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J36je4NC4zo

3 Responses to I like secrets ’cause they keep me in line.

  1. Hannah says:

    Don’t worry, you aren’t the only one. I’m going from a middle school with 60 kids per grade, where everyone knows eachother, and knows every teacher, to a school where there will be a couple HUNDRED kids per grade. It’s going to be a big change, and I’m nervous as hell, as well. And I’ll guarantee you, several of your fellow students are stressing just as much as you. You have nothing to worry about anyway. You’re intelligent, so you’ll get the work done easily. You’ll be challenged for once, and that automatically will make things so much better for you. Even when you don’t want to do work, you’re creative and persistent enough that you’ll find a way to make it more interesting. And if you don’t ALWAYS complete an assignment, it’s not the end of the world. You’re sociable enough, sweet, funny, and have an incredible personality–you’ll be making friends in no time, I assure you. Really, try and relax a little. It’s all going to be fine!! :D

  2. Nixie says:

    Hannah, do you know how awesome this commment made me feel? You always know how to cheer me up and make me smile. <3

  3. Hannah says:

    I’m happy I made you feel better! It makes me feel bad when you are unhappy!!

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