Pitter patter on the roof top?

My week has been sad, and to top it off I found out my guitar teacher is moving back to New Jersey with his family. I feel really sad about this because it has been a while since I have practiced and taken lessons, a month at least, and now I find out that I have wasted my time. I figured I would start back up at the beginning of 2010 and keep guitar lessons as a constant. I know I have learned the basics and can explore new things on my own but who do I have to jam with now?

My lungs feel heavy in my chest now and music hasn’t been giving me the same cleansing feeling lately. If my mom really is right, I want all these new things to be great. I want Taylor to be my friend, I want to hang out with the writer Jenee more, and I don’t really know what else. I just want to sit in the little coffee shop, One More Cup, and think things over with a hot white chocolate mocha.

October, you have been greedy and rainy. You have taken my aunt Sherry, and though we are still in contact, I can no longer make a run with her to Barnes and Noble. October, you have taken away Anne Winter, but with this loss there is no “coming back”. And now you take away Joe, my guitar teacher. My mom says there must be a whole lot of “new” on the way but I can’t help but to cry.

On the other hand, I am very glad today is Friday. Fridays always give me relief. School is getting easier, but I don’t want it to become too boring because without a challenge I am nothing.

I was listening to my Monster EP I bought at The Almost’s concert a couple weeks ago and I am a little disappointed. I am afraid Monster, Monster will not live up to Southern Weather‘s debut. But oh how I love Aaron Gillespie’s voice. “Dirty and Left Out” practically saves me as well as Cinematic Sunrise’s “Umbrella’s and Elephants”. I could sing you the words if you’d like.

And I know once the clouds shed their tears
I know that I’ll be okay
I know that I’ll be okay


2 Responses to Pitter patter on the roof top?

  1. Sherry says:

    Phoenixx – I’m sad and crying right now – I love reading your blog, it always touches me. I love you. You’re Mom is right, there is a whole lot of ‘new’ on the way and you will be okay. We’ll be okay. Everything will be okay.

  2. jane says:

    You can hang out with me anytime! But we have to split a burger. Smiles!

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