I’m sinking like a stone in the sea.

June 6, 2009

6/6/09

I keep taking deep breaths because it feels like forgot how to breathe. I breathe too slow or to quick; not taking in enough oxygen or too much air. During the school year my little brother would breathe through his mouth heavily. Sometimes he would cry at night and I didn’t know why. It annoyed me terribly and I kept trying to explain to him why he didn’t need to breathe that way. Now I know the feeling. All of the sudden in the middle of the day I think, I don’t know what to do. You are probably thinking, About what? Well, I don’t know either. I just feel so utterly overwhelmed by everything. It’s summer time, right? I shouldn’t bother having to feel this way, but I do. And I am scared. I don’t know what will happen in a few hours or even a few days. Nobody really does. I mean, you might have a few events mapped out, but you don’t know what those moments of the day will feel like.

I went to my mother for advice and what she said was, “Just go and babysit. Once when you get home you can figure out what to do next.” I liked this idea, but this is all new for me. I’m used to planning out my day and setting goals, whether I realized it or not. This unpredictable schedule is throwing me off a bit. Today, I don’t want this day to slip away from me like all the other days do. Wasted and chasing time. Please time, stand still for only a day or two.

Brand New’s album Deja Entendu feels like my soundtrack. The events probably don’t quite match up, but the instrumentals capture my mood. In some songs Jesse Lacey almost whispers and I turn up my volume to savor his words. Especially in “Tautou”, which is one of my favorites though it’s only a minute and a half long.

I want to make this day last, but I don’t seem to know how. All I know is that I don’t want Monday to come. Please, not yet. If everyday was Saturday then I’d be fine with that. I’m still confused why I’m scared of what is next to come….


You’re Gonna Go Far Kid

February 16, 2009

I was thinking. If I was offered the opportunity to be a journalist for a music magazine (possibly Alternative Press or Rolling Stone) or to be a guitarist in an amazing band. Which would I choose? I had wanted to play guitar since I was nine years old. Practicing my air guitar in the privacy of my own room, completely spazing. Or pouring my guts out with ink and paper in hopes of becoming an utterly brilliant writer.

Being in a band would be quite interesting. I’d enjoy the fun questionnaires you get in interviews and your “humble” opinion on things. Looking super fierce in when you play live so you can intimidate people. Or to be some coffee drinking freak, blinded from the sun, glued to your computer, writing obsesser. Wearing T-shirts and tight jeans, strutting around like you know what you’re doing. Reader, does that thought ever cross your mind? I wonder where life will take me quite often. Who will I end up being in the next couple of years (I’m hoping I’ll stay true to who I am now.)?

Reader, let’s be honest. Would either of those jobs fully satisfy me? I seem to be quite an undecided person. I purchase an item at a store. “I love it! I’m so happy I bought it!” The next twenty minutes. “What the heck did I just waste my money on?! I could have bought ‘such and such’.” Yep, that is me. Being on the road with a band would be fun for a while. Awake at all hours, doing what you love, traveling, and playing shows. My only problem? I get motion sickness. I’d practically be bulimic. Then the shows would get tiring, performing the same songs until you write a new one. I suppose I shouldn’t think so negatively, maybe I’d be able to make a big impact on a lot of kids. Then there is writing. After a while, what is there to talk about? You are usually seen with a pen in your hand or your eyes are burning from staring at a computer screen for so many hours.

I guess I can be quite the “party pooper”, but that’s just me my friend. You either do or don’t like me, I don’t care too much. Either one I’d love. Writing would be easier to handle, though I’d miss the comfort of my guitar, Bella, too much. The excitement of playing a gig and going crazy on stage sounds and looks intruiging. Who knows where the world might take me….


Chiodos

January 7, 2009

Chiodos. This is a band that have definitely earned my respect. I managed to pick up a used copy of their first album, “All That’s Well, Ends Well” in November of ’08 for five dollars. I love that album and from the songs I look up off “Bone Palace Ballet” they just get better. Craig Owens has this beautiful, yet odd, high pitched voice that becomes so addicting to me.  Then he can scream at the top of his lungs all of the sudden. The guitarists, bassist, keyboardist, and drummer, all know what they are doing and sound amazing whether in recording or live. I adore the songs, “A Letter From Janelle”, “Expired In Goreville”, “Baby You Wouldn’t Last One Minute On The Creek”, “Bears Make Money, Pings Get Slaughtered”, and “Lindsey Quit Lollygagging”. I don’t listen to screamo, or hardcore other than Chiodos and honestly I don’t consider them to fit into either of those genres. Chiodos have a style all their own with songs that make you sad or just feel like they fit in some point in your life. I don’t understand it.

From what I have seen in videos, read, or heard Craig has this really generous personality. I want to meet him, it makes me want to know him, be his friend. I suppose that sounds creepy, but I don’t mean for it to. While listening to Chiodos, I’ve developed a small “crush” on Craig Owens. You are probably thinking, it’s always the lead singer, right? Get this, I know he has a girlfriend and I’m not hoping for him to break up with her like some fan-girls. I admire his wisdom and talent to understand the concept of music.

I keep looking on their website in hopes of finding a tour date for them to come near me. I keep saying to myself, “Come to ____!!!” Another clip I found on YouTube when they were here on Warped Tour of ’07. *sigh*


REVIEW: The Killers – Day & Age

January 2, 2009

01/02/09

 

200px-killers_day_age3As the instrumentals begin the sound remind me of a cowboy tune, not country but cowboy.  Like Muse’s “Knights Of Cydonia”. Brandon Flower’s flawless vocals that I’ve loved since second grade started singing, ” Console me in my darkest hour, could this be that the truth is always grey. Caress me in your velvet chair, conceal me from the ghost you cast away. I’m in no hurry, you go run and tell your friends I’m losing touch.” The first track is already brilliant with its unique sound and beautiful lyrics. The next song is one of the first I heard off of this record, I believe it’s called “Human”?  The Killers played “Human and “Spaceman” on Saturday Night Live and the Tonight Show with Jay Leno, now that is big. Rolling Stone magazine has already given the album, song, and new music video for “Human” five stars and I must agree with this choice. “And I’m on my knees looking for the answer… you gotta let me know.” Two singles in a row?? Yes, “Spaceman” happens to be the next track. Again Flowers leads the way with his vocals, “Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, ooooh-oh.”

The Killers have always striked me as a band who seemed to have been a classic forever, like The Beatles. I adore the creative lyrics from “Spaceman” and “A Dustland Fairytale”. I am happy when I listen to music and if so I sing. I was singing to “Spaceman”  even if my voice is terrible I enjoy singing to my favorite songs.

Here comes that cowboy sound again with “Joy Ride”. I flip through the cover art. (Did I ever tell you cover art is one of my favorite things in purchasing a CD?) A picture of each of the band members created with speckled dots to match their skin tone, hair, and shirt. It seems odd, but truly creative. “A Dustland Fairytale” was one of my favorites on this album. Flowers sang of a kiss, Cinderella in a party dress looking for a gown, her price looks as she has always wanted him too, yet something is not right. Decoding lyrics is one of my specialties, I wonder what was going through their head at the time to create something so brutal or astonishingly beautiful.

As the track listing goes on I listen to, “This Is Your Life” and “I Can’t Stay”. “I Can’t Stay” is one of my favorites, the simple lyrics make me want to dance and sing along. It has a similar sounding intrumentals, but only in certain parts like Fall Out Boy’s “w.a.m.s”. I don’t know what it sounded similar too though. “In the dark for a while now, I can’t stay… much longer.”

I promise you, if I were ever graced with the chance to see The Killers, I wouldn’t care if I only went to at least two shows that year. All I would ask for is a phenomenal performance, great sound, and of course pictures taken with my digital camera. The song, “Neon Tiger” is interesting because from what I got out of it, Flowers was singing of being free. “Run neon tiger, you’ve got a lot on your mind.” The last track on the album was finally here, “Goodnight, Travel Well”. As soon as I heard  the guitar, bass, and drums Flowers vocals matched the tune along with the lyrics. The Killers know how to end it good. This was definitely a five star album if you are a fan of The Killers you should go grab a copy at Target for only $9.99. Even if you are new to The Killers you should try it out by listening to the tracks on YouTube or iTunes. And with that, I shall conclude my review.

Losing Touch 4 stars

Human 4 stars

Spaceman 5 stars

Joy Ride 4 stars

A Dustland Fairytale 5 stars

This Is Your Life 4.5 stars

I Can’t Stay 4.5 stars

Neon Tiger 4 stars

The World We Live In 4.5 stars

Goodnight, Travel Well 5 stars


REVIEW: Feist – The Reminder

January 2, 2009

01/02/09

feist-the-reminder3Feist’s pure and all natural sounding vocals come in through the speakers, as I press play on the CD player. “So Sorry” is the first track on this record. Giving an acoustic sound, roames to an end as the next track plays on.

“I Feel It All” is playing in the background as I look over the cover art. Thinking clouds filled with lyrics, colored tear drops or are they rain drops? Spools of thread in shiny colors such as gold, and last but not least, dice. I adore this cover art for some odd reason, it seems so simple, though I think that is why I like it.

My ears perk up to the sound of “My Moon, My Man”. This is such a great tune you can just bounce around to the beat, possibly looking like an idiot. “My moon, my man. So changeable and such a lovable lamb to me.” When someone catches me singing or bouncing around I look at them and keep going, just acting like a don’t care. You know what, they don’t laugh as much because I’m not bothered by their snickers!

I fell in love with the song “The Water”. Feist hums, “The water, the water. Didn’t realize its dangerous size.” If I were laying in bed attempting to calm myself, this tune would most likely do the trick. “1234” Another single and her most popular song so far. I especially like the music video. It has that plainly glamorous feel to it, with people dancing around  and Feist wearing a sparkling dark blue top. Honestly, who wouldn’t want to listen to a song that sings, “One, two, three, four, tell me that you love me more.”?

Praise for the memorable favorites on this record including, “The Water”, “So Sorry”, and “Brandy Alexander”. Most of the songs on this album have an acoustic sound with its acoustic guitar, piano, and tambourine. I cannot explain it. Could I say “all natural” once more? Does it even make sense? No, probably not, but you will/would understand if you have or will listen to this album. In my opinion this is a 3.5 star album out of five. I thought that was pretty good coming from a person who only really listens to punk rock. Now to those who like Charolette Sometimes, Sarah Bareilles, Kate Nash or Lily Allen I recommend this album otherwise you’ll have a hard time sitting through the soft tunes Feist has created.

So Sorry 4 stars   

I Feel It All 3 stars

My Moon, My Man 3.5 stars

The Park 3.5 stars

the water 5 stars

Past In Present 3 stars

The Limit To Your Love 4 stars

1234  4 stars

Brandy Alexander 5 stars

Intuition 4 stars

Honey Honey 3 stars

How My Heart Behaves 3.5 stars


The Killers

December 31, 2008

With The Killers new album out reaching the top of charts for their single, “Human”, the video for “Human”, and just a brilliant album.  every now and then I try and check TicketMaster to see if The Killers are coming my way, yet no dates scheduled quite yet. I have my fingers crossed that if I see them in 2009, I hope it will be the best concert of the year. For Christmas I recived adore the songs “On Top”, “Andy You’re a Star”, “Smile Like You Mean It”, and “Jenny Was a Friend of Mine”. While searching YouTube I found this video of  The Killer performing, “On Top”. Great sound, performance, everything. Just watch it.

Here are just a couple more…